Im ALL SCREWed UP.........
I'Ve Nvr FElT So DIStRESSEd EVER........

EveryThIng CAme CrUSHin On ME.......
Its PusHiN Me To A DEAd CornER........
I WAke Up In SwEATs EVEry NiGHt ,
HoPIn TT U CAn Be By My SIde........
Now I'Ve NtH And IS NTH........
Im FILLEd WiTh FEar To The BriM Of
My Mind.......Im AfraId Of LosiN Any
MOre PPl FrM My Life......U Dun KNow
HOW TiMID I BecOMe afTEr U Left.......


My HEad FelT Like SomeONe HAs BeeN
PLayIn Drum On It......Its HurTin And TEarIN.....
My HearT Felt LIke SOmeONe IS SqeezIn
It......Im Out OF BreaTH aND GAspIn HArd
FOR Air.......I FelT TreMemDousLY COld in SCh......
WiTh My ThIck JAcKet On.....I StIll TreMbLE......
My SChOOl ProBIA Is BAcK.......I duN FeeL SAFe
BeIn In Sch AlOne W/OuT THEm.......SeriOUSLy......
I'Ve No MoOD Nor MoTIVATIon To StuDY..........
LOOKIn AT How They FAre .......Im SenSin FEAr ALL
Over My MINd......Yes....I BegIn to HoPe TT THEres
No Sch TMl......I BeGiN To SweAT WhENeveR SoMEOne
MEntiOn o LEveLS......I StaRT To ThInK And DepRESs
MySElf.......I KNoW If I GO On Like TIS....I'LL HAve
DEPreSSIon....But I CAnt COntrOl My MInd.........
I Dun HAv THe KEYs TO Shut DOWn My MINd.......
They ARe WorKIn In A 24 Hour WAy TT MAke ME
WAke In SweaTS......I NEEd SOmeONe TO GUide ME
Thru TIS VEry PEriOD seRIOUSly.......If Nt........
I'll Fall And Nvr Know The way To GEt Up............


TAnsINgEE IS a WEAkLIng WhO NEED ATTEnTIOn
And SuPPort ALL Over.......WheN SHes LEft ALOne.....
She CAn ThINK More Than U CAn ImaGINE a MINd
CAn Do.......But Dun WORRy.....She Wun Do SIllY ThInGS
CuRREnTLy ........She StIll CAn HoLD On FOr SOme TiMe.....
BuT WHen SHe fiNALLy DOwn And OuT......Dun BLAme
HEr For TAkIn The easy WAY OuT.......U SHld Try To
Know HOW HiGh Did She FAll FROm.......


AnD I BEgIn To SusPEcT TT My BodY IsnT FUnCtIoNIn
The RiGht WAy ANyMore.......Im AFraId TT MuM IS SPot
On......SHe ALwayS ThINk TT I'll BE LIke DAd....SuFFErIN
FRm SOme.....SOme ILLness.....Like DaDS WAs DIebeTIs....
YAh....I CAn ConClUde i'll Suffer FRm dePreSSion Juz Like
I SUsPect She Hav It.......


EvErYtHInG SEEms NicelY PLAnNEd......Juz As I FoUND
Out I LOst My PLAns , DreAms , HOPes And DIREctIons......
ToDAys CME LEssOn WAs On Tis SenSitiVE ToPIc.........
SoRRy To InFORm U TT I SeriOUSLy HAve No IDea Wat
I WAnt CurrenTLy......WITh All HoPES DAsHEd........
WAt More CAn I WAnt ????

soRRY....SOrry...Sorry.....SorrY.....SoRRy......SOrRY......
I WAsnt AS sTRONg As yoU ........
I WAsnt AS MAtURE As You ........
I WAsnT AS ExPeriENced As YOU.......
I WAsnt As SMarT As YOu........
I WAsnt AS Open MiNded AS YOU.......
I WAsnt AS ChEErFUl As You........
I WAS A WEAkLInG , A NOOb , A faiLuRE........
ThANKs FOR ALL TT yOU HAV GAvE.......
U GAv ME A CHAnce To KNOW TT LiFE iS BEAuTIfUl
WITh YOU.......Im WorkIn HArd And I WAnT To Be
lIKE YoU......I WAnt To Be STroNg Like YoU........
U TauGhT Me To GROW up In A More CrUEl WAy.....
ItS Nice HAvIn YOu In mY Life......
THANk YOU ~~
I Nvr REgRET CHOOSin To LOve yOu......

I FelT TiREd....BuT I CouLD nt Slp.....

i FelT Hungry....but I could Nt eat.......

i felt Happy....but I could Nt SMile.....

wat is HAppeniNg To me???

In Life......
iTS GREat To KNow TT u'Ve MeeT wOnderFUl PPl
And They Juz SUrroUnd BesIDE YoU WHEneVEr
u NEEd THem.......THANks PEEPS FOr BeIn There
FOr Me ALL THe TiMe.......
I LEaRn To SMiLe WHen I CRy........